memories? nonsense chitchat.

Current Mood: Nostalgic



yayay. the fucking prom night ish fucking tonight.
and i just got back from there.
it was.. boring to tell you the truth. i thought i would cry there, but then i ended up there on my seat sulking like a little girl.
despite all the things i've mentioned before, it was OK.

lately because no more classes to attend, i got much time to think over things.
yaaa... i'm such a thinker. whatever.



Me. the one who was standing right beside you.
days by days passed, and i realized. i am not worthy to be there.
there meant to be someone alot better than me, someone who deserves it.
anyone, except me. plus all the things i've done to you.

when i put my mind through flashback, i couldn't remember anything.
what you did to me that made me cried for the whole year, nor the happiness you bring until this time.
i remember the pain, and up until now it's still penetrating.
but i also remember you gave me a lot of things.
happiness, courage, sensibility, friendship, you even taught me how to love.
without a word, you're always there. how could i be so selfish?
right now i remember what a fool i've been.
but there's nothing that i can do to change the fact.

at that time, i was extremely happy.
i don't care you loved me or not, let me be the one who loves you.
so give me one more chance to start a new beginning.
and then i will be able to stand right by your side again, but this time.
i will deserve it.

and so you can proudly say
"She is my friend."